tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8344279820381840369.post1914817582448560519..comments2023-05-10T00:37:05.100-07:00Comments on Audrianna's Story: Missing youAngelahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17080058014338822703noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8344279820381840369.post-12551215597122844542013-03-19T23:43:31.462-07:002013-03-19T23:43:31.462-07:00Hi Angela,
I feel your pain so much, my husband an...Hi Angela,<br />I feel your pain so much, my husband and I lost our youngest daughter to the AIDs virus nearly 25 yrs ago. You never forget losing them but each day the sun will get brighter and brighter. The first two years after my daughters death were the hardest days of my entire life. Then one day my husband had the wonderful idea to erect a memorial to our daughter in our home. I don't know how religious you are but I feel that if we need our departed loved ones near us they are there. I have had several experiences where I have felt her presence near us since then. It may seem hard now, but do not despair on what you did not do, but rather rejoice in what you and your daughter did together and what a wonderful person she is. I feel that it is better to talk about our daughter in the present, than in the past. The past tends to haunt us and drive in to the mindset of thinking what if. Do not fear to cry as we let our emotions out that way. When the weather improves and spring flowers start to bloom, I encourage you and your family to spend just one day outside possibly a picnic and do not treat it as a memorial service for Audrianna, but rather treat it as if she was there. These are some of the things that have gotten Ralph my husband and I through the years. I wish you all the best and a very Happy Easter. Feel Free to contact me via my facebook if you ever need a friend, ok: https://www.facebook.com/irenem.williamson<br /><br />Irene Williamson Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12585948488821528501noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8344279820381840369.post-28490762680266157612013-03-19T20:35:52.129-07:002013-03-19T20:35:52.129-07:00angela my love,my oldest daughter, with all my hea...angela my love,my oldest daughter, with all my heart i feel your pain. audri hugs me as i know she hugs you during our worst times everyday. i know she wouldnt want us to fell alone, she is here, although we cant hug her and tell her to her face she hears us , i would give my life to see her smile and hear her laugh again, i know she wouldnt want that, she would say" its ok poppa john " i know you miss her and honestly i have no idea what you are going through just please know im here for you whether it be to say go f yourself or i love you to scream or to cry im here and i f'n mean it i love you <br />Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02411648862187239915noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8344279820381840369.post-28320685914395949942013-03-19T20:21:18.377-07:002013-03-19T20:21:18.377-07:00Angie your words r so true. I have lived a long ti...Angie your words r so true. I have lived a long time without my daughter Lori. She was 2 and 1/2 yrs young when she passed away. It doesn't get easier just..well...different. I remember the early months..and yrs. So hard. Then slowly things became colorful again...like you say there is a grayness. Everyone is different. Back when Lori passed away there wasn't internet. I spent many hrs talking to our priest. It helped for me. I asked every question and was given all the answers. It helped. Life did go on and it was a slow process back. There's no 12 step for grief tht I know of. And everyone is different. I will never say I know how you feel. I found holding close to loved ones..the immediate family helped. They cried with me. They lost a neice a grandbaby a god child etc. We all lost Lori!! We all lost her. Losing a child ispain like you describe. The wanting to sleep could be your body and brain needing to heal. Don't feel bad about the need to rest perchance to sleep and dream. I'm not a dr. But I think its imperative to rest after wht you have been thru. Your body and brain have taken a blow. Emotions to where one might be so cried out only exhaustion fills the void and you must sleep. My heart goes out to you. I remember the months and first yrs without Lori. March 30th is her anniversary of her death. Right around easter...every easter I remember how the baskets remind me of her..etc. etc. Your words so true. Journaling is good...if you can stay journaling. It may be a good release and good thing to do. For you first and foremost and then for all the people who love Audrianna too. I wish we lived closer I would just sit with you..even if it was in silence. Its the unspoken words and just knowing someone is there tht is comforting. lymemommahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18414043043280286474noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8344279820381840369.post-13715153152604125852013-03-19T20:17:25.413-07:002013-03-19T20:17:25.413-07:00I am so sorry for your loss. I have followed your ...I am so sorry for your loss. I have followed your story for a long time. Audrianna was a soldier, and though she lost the battle, the war against cancer isn't over. And people like her continue the fight everyday, one day there will be no more illness, I truly believe that. And I believe that Audrianna's fight wasn't in vein she, and so many others fight and have fought it, and one day it will be gone. I know you miss her, even though I didn't know her personally, I miss her too! She is with you always, trust in that!<br /><br />AaronMeals on Wheelshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04715220102240228233noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8344279820381840369.post-15050262987703196132013-03-19T20:16:40.635-07:002013-03-19T20:16:40.635-07:00I feel for you, I am terribly sorry for your loss....I feel for you, I am terribly sorry for your loss. I don't know what it means to live what you are living, I can only imagine the darkness and void you are feeling. Look at Kyra and see Audrianna in her eyes. She is living in her, in your heart, and you need to be strong for Kyra now. Try to meet with people that have gone through the same thing to find some comfort, don't let go. Life is short for all of us, try to make the best of it even though it sucks! Keep writing it's therapeutical. Don't let go!<br />Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09028377213437915382noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8344279820381840369.post-12342871176922457442013-03-19T20:16:33.865-07:002013-03-19T20:16:33.865-07:00As I read your blog it brought back so many memori...As I read your blog it brought back so many memories. I remember feeling just like you do. It has been many years since I lost my Daughter, but I can relate to how your feeling. Your an amazing woman and you have a good head on your shoulders, try to remember to be gentle on yourself. Grief is a process. I can tell you, that in time,things will be different. The loss will always be with you but it wont feel like it does now. You are in my prayers... I pray God will comfort your soul and help you find ways to work thru the grief until you are reunited with your Daughter.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02644114681674067877noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8344279820381840369.post-8396328212025271852013-03-19T20:09:12.979-07:002013-03-19T20:09:12.979-07:00This is horribly normal. You are not doing it wors...This is horribly normal. You are not doing it worse than anybody else. There is no making it better faster. There is only time to put a bit of cushion between you and the loss of your dear child. Love Kyra and know that everything else is gravy. spectrummomhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02893167023543993093noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8344279820381840369.post-65187391578917570702013-03-19T20:01:51.120-07:002013-03-19T20:01:51.120-07:00She WILL be there, you just wont be able to see he...She WILL be there, you just wont be able to see her. I strongly believe she is going to be near you for a long time to come and she is worried that she can't help you, it's not the other way around anymore, not you worrying that you can't help her. You don't want her to feel that way. I think feelings are the one thing we take with us when we go and as we come back and forth to check on our loved ones we can feel their feelings too, even if we are not present physically. I would be afraid that might hinder her process of moving towards peace and resting while she waits for all her loved ones to arrive safely with her on the other side. If I came to see my mother mourning me I would be afraid to go on without knowing she was going to be okay, or even afraid to go on without her, especially if I were so young. Ive been following you for some time, I could never walk in your shoes and I admire your strength. Don't let your courage die with her. Your loved ones need you here. Give Kyra all the love you save for Audrianna, she would want that, she does want that and Kyra needs it. Do not die an emotional death and do not allow your family to either, it is far worse than a physical one. Much respect, Edena.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com